Honesty.
Integrity.
Freedom.

The uncertainty that comes with honesty is at once relieving and exhilarating.

Listened to someone read a story about God today and they mentioned the Tao and "the natural flow" of things as opposed to going against this "natural flow". In my perception of things, there is no possibility of going against the flow. It's all God. No flow is more sacred then the next.

I’m falling in love. I thought it was about feeling this other person but I’m seeing that it’s really about feeling myself, falling in love with myself. It's all one motion, inseparable.

I came out as a lesbian when I was 17. I lived in San Francisco most of my adult life surrounded by a pretty accepting culture. I think that being 'out' where ever I was, was preparation to simply being. I joined a spiritual community 9 years ago and realize now that instead of this being an atmosphere where being out (in every sense) was expanded, I was actually encouraged to climb back into a closet. I was subtly, and not so subtly, told that what I was, what I did, wasn't OK. It was expected that I would conform to the guru's idea of what was OK to be expressed in all facets of my life. I was encouraged to not trust my heart. I left this community about 2 months ago and I'm coming out... again and again and again, simply being.

There hasn't been a moment that you and I weren't the perfect expression of One.

The feeling of time, time passing, the past, present and future, is such a strong illusion. I know that these seeming things are all happening at once, I can feel that as well as the linearness of cause and effect. There is only one thing happening, no separate things. Nothing happens. And yet fingers touch keys and black squiggles appear. The illusion of connectedness is laughing with me.

ready or not

I've been reading stuff by different 'enlightened' beings and when they write about final stages I get a weird feeling in my body. It seems that is a common thing...writing that one has entered the final stage of enlightenment. That just doesn't seem possible. The final stage, I mean, not the writing that someone has 'attained' it.

But then, everything is possible.